i need to gain weight, apparently?
ok so periodically, well, every week, i measure and weigh myself. i haven’t gained or lost weight in years – but i don’t control it, i just happen to have a high metabolism and i stay at 120 lbs (give or take) in spite of eating like i eat (a lot).
so, i recently was featured in the homepage of askmen.com with a photo gallery, and collegehumor.com wrote a short article on me about those pictures:
i admit it was flattering and made me blush a little, and it was funny too (the “missing i” part was so cool). i had no idea that the website wrote that, in fact, if it wasn’t for some of my friends telling me they saw me in the collegehumor.com homepage, i wouldn’t have known.
later i was able to read the comments by the users. the comments however, kinda shocked me. i did see some funny ones like “hot damn”, “me likey pie”, etc. but what actually made me feel a little uneasy was this:
“hmmm…maybe a bit too skinny”
“yea i don’t really like her body shape… looks funny to me. Gain 5-10 pounds and she’d be perfect.”
“Yeah some (like #2) she looks like a concentration camp survivor. Others (4&5) she looks like a healthy, big-boobed hotty.”
(pics #2, 4, and 5 that the poster commented about)
i am used of casting directors, agents, photographers, managers, bookers, and even clients telling me my “faults”, because it is very eye-opening and i always appreciate constructive criticism. and i take it very well. after all, without realizing your “not perfect” aspects and improving them, no one can get ahead of their career, any career.
but to see what people not in the entertainment industry think of me in an unbiased way is very different than what i’m used to. those guys (or girls?) probably did not think i was going to read their comments, which is cool. i actually appreciate those comments because it makes me realize some things that i did not see – that some people think i am too skinny?
but i really feel otherwise.
i mean, “concentration camp survivor”? wtf i swear. i’m not that skinny. i just ate beans and rice (so good). every day i eat probably about 20% more than the average “healthy” person, and i stay the same. i mean everyone always tells me to not eat that many pastries and ice cream cause i will get sick. and you’re thinking, “well what you eat is not the problem, the problem is that you look too skinny”. but what the fuck do i do? hit the gym and grow some muscles? when i was in the track team in college i run a lot, worked out a lot, 6 days a week, and still, 120 fucking pounds. i was very very toned, and my legs still are very muscular i think from that, but here’s a news-flash: there’s no more room, and unless i eat 5,000 calories a day, which i won’t cause i dont wanna get type 2 diabetes, i will still weigh 120.
screw you, metabolism. actually, never mind… thank you, for not assimilating food as easily. and for those of you who tell me i’m skinny, well i’m sorry but just deal with what i can’t and won’t change about me. trust me, i do eat. i love to eat. but just like there are short and not-short people, there are skinny and not-skinny people. metabolisms. i need sugar to function. it’s genetics, and we gotta deal with it by accepting and embracing who we are instead of thinking of our faults. don’t change the way you look for someone else. don’t try to please everybody or else you’ll go crazy.
if we focus on the positive aspects within ourselves, it’s all that really matters. beauty consists of a small part of what you look like, and a big part of how you feel like. beauty reflects in your personality, through your eyes, and believe it or not, the confidence that seeps through your body language. the happier and more comfortable you become with your body, the better you feel. learn to listen to it. beauty is in the attitude and how YOU want others to see you.
You are perfect the way you are! If you were starving yourself, that would be a different story. But the fact that you have been a consistent 120 lbs means that weight is perfect for you. I am the same way. I have always been 120 lbs and can eat whatever I want. In LA I always was told I was “too skinny” and “too tall.” Really people? We are MODELS. Of course in “non model world” everyone has different perceptions of beauty, but it seems the uglier a man is, the more critical he is of a woman’s body. I’m sure all of these men saying these things probably could never even come close to dating someone like you. And the fact that you are skinny AND have great boobs…. idiots!!!
Well said Danella… People tend to write some really mean things, you just have to accept that some people are just ignorant and will do anything to get some attention… When I first replaced the old lead singer in No Authority, you should have SEEN some of the things that “fans” were saying about me in magazines and online, it was as if I wasn’t a human being with feelings, just something for them to talk crap about… Eventually that stopped and everything came together, but I just said that to make the point that sometimes people don’t think of the power of their words… Heck, the PRESIDENT did it JUST THE OTHER DAY with his Special Olympics comment!!! Anyway, I wouldn’t stress too much about what the people leaving messages on http://www.collegehumor.com are saying anyway, I mean, after all, they are leaving messages on collegehumor.com… lol ;)
What are they thinking?
Well, to each his own, yes?
You have been gifted with a gorgeous body coupled with a gorgeous mind and spirit…nuff said. And I know, so there.
All my love,
D
Thank you for your posts. I love hearing what you think and knowing that fashion models can be geniune. Please keep writing!
Very interesting stuff. You are smart AND good looking. Attractive doesn’t mean stupid and your blog proves that.
you look great, i totally get you cause i have tha same type of metabolism and people is always worried about how skinny i look, but there is nothing i can do about it!! those comments make me feel bad and i start to think that i look awful!
Danella,
If you, like I do, have a quick metabolism, it is a blessing! We can eat what we want and we don’t gain weight. 99% of the humanity would like to be like this, as we don’t know what the struggle with weight means.
Keep up being gorgeous,
XX
Your boobs are sagging a little bit..
maybe a little more milk?
haha
Shut the hell up brolly.
Danella I think your boobs are perfect. Plus they look natural.
ahahhaa..
They look natural.. :P
The bikini photo that apears in the college humor pic is one of my favorites. The angle, everything is so nice.
About the skinny thing, I think I get what they mean, there are some photos where your hips looks as inexistent (the one where you are with a blue swimsuit), but in others, they look fine. I don’t know if it’s an edition thing but in that photo, that part of you body doesn’t look as good as others. As you also said, it’s a genetic thing, not everyone have hips (damn, I have to give away!!! Anybody want some? I just started doing exercises -really doing them- a couple of months ago, hope to see results).
The important thing is that in other photos, your body looks healthy and that is what counts.
About the boob thing, I don’t know, they seem ok to me, not too big and not too small. They look like a good size for your body.
Remember not everyone likes the same things. Some likes curvy, others like thin,and other likes strange bodied girls :D The good things are the ones that counts.
Ohh, I also thought the ‘Missing an i’ thing when I first read about you, funny.